Gabrielle Griot
Attachment Theory
3am and I’m looking
up the history of Fun Dip or erotic ASMR
meditating on an emergency
paying $25 to teach my therapist
about a specific strain of feminism
worrying that she hates me
gaining twenty pounds & taking photos
of myself artistically crying
this is what you’ve done to me
I want to write but instead I pour
another glass of wine & text you
the Spotify link to Nothing Compares 2 U
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you think it’s never going to end
then it does
then it’s 3am & you’re lying
hysterically in the dark
watching the light draw
angry circles across your retinas
thinking there’s nothing that can be done
& even less time to do it
so we’ll just keep choking on
chalky slabs of melatonin & the moon
just keeps hanging there
dumb in the sky
GABRIELLE GRIOT is an American writer currently based in the UK. She holds an MA in Creative Writing from the University of East Anglia, where she wrote across both poetry and prose. Recent work can be found in The Moth, New Writing and elsewhere.